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1.30.2005 Haven't updated for a couple of nights, can't really remember anything I did that is blog-worthy. Went out with SABA today to celebrate Jed's birthday, it was generally alright but I must admit that some things are different, for my part at least. I definitely felt different about alot of stuff, oh well, not gonna give it too much thought, I'm over that by now. Bought Jed trunks from Urban Male, its the striped pair that Javier Thong modelled in. Haha went to Pre-Rouge for dinner and den to Acid Bar for some drinks. Took some really funny pictures there, can't wait for Morr to post them. Had a family gathering earlier this morning, paternal grandfather's death anniversary. As usual, the issue of me being single came up again, and everyone was debating over how i'm the last kiddo there who is single. Whatever, as if the issue isn't bugging me enough already. Ok, actually, it really isn't bugging me THAT much. I'm more concerned now abt my career and pursueing my dreams. Oh, today was also the day that I truly realised what a useless dad i have. I am terribly ashamed of him, sigh, it's such a shame, really. I'm not unfillial, don't start judging me now cause trust me, your dad is nothing like mine. I need a belt and pair of pants! Haha i know specifically what i want, just can't find affordable and nice ones. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:29 AM {xoxo} 1.26.2005 The event is finally over! It was SO SO SO fun and really exhausting. I have tannlines on my FOREHEAD now, cause we were made to wear bandanas. The day started off early with a briefing at Ritz Carlton, had quite a good start. Met my group and everything began really quickly. Some of the Nokia bigwigs really pissed me off big time with their diva behavior, but i shall not remember those. There is 1 incident I must share though, this guy from my group won the lucky draw, and it was a 50 dollars F&B voucher for Ritz Carlton and he GAVE IT TO ME! It was such a sweet gesture that really really touched me deeply, I mean, it said so much! Was very very very happy after that, i'll always remember that guy. It's people like him that really gives me the determination to press on, despite all obstacles. Went for drinks with my colleagues at Harry's after that, was glad that they all thought I did a great job! Phew. Work today was quite tiring, Julian came in to help, he was an excellent help man! And I gave him the vouchers, haha hopefully he can use it for v Day. Oh yes, that poor guy was helping me today, thank god!! Haha I think he will go far in life, he's really intelligent, could tell from his actions. We had a great dinner at Pariss, my treat. Haha had great conversation and i think his analysis of me was pretty much 100% accurate. Oh well, there's a party at a colleague's place tmrw night, kinda looking forward to that! signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:35 PM {xoxo} 1.24.2005 I wish there's someone out there who really understands how I feel. I really wanna quit school, i can't stand the dumb people there, lecturers and students alike. My course is so boring, I don't like I'm learning anything, I'm not learning enough! And that pisses me off ALOT. I wanna work fulltime, like now. I have so much fun at work. Tomorrow's my event, quite nervous but very excited! I'm sure it's gonna be lots of fun. Ok colleague just called! Look at the time!! This is what I mean, i love work. We work round the clock, I'm such a workaholic. I can't stand being idle for one fucking second. Yup, now you know why I hate school? Such a waste of time, my colleage was commenting today "You guys have so many breaks, no wonder your course takes 3 years!!" I couldn't agree more!! It's such a waste of time, we should just condense everything into 2 years, take out redundant subjects, trust me, it will be SO MUCH better. Anyhow, I hope my team doesn't give me trouble tmrw, please pray hard I don't get a jaded bunch. They are such highflyers, I mustn't get intimidated. One day, I will be like that too. My cousin's gf laughed at me when I said that. She thought I was daydreaming. Whatever. I think my mentality is too old for someone my age. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:07 PM {xoxo} 1.23.2005 Briefing today was very tiring, thanks to the sweltering sun, but lots of fun nonetheless. Asked alot of questions, it's gonna be quite scary on Tues cause I will be alone with the delegates most of the time. What if I screw up or don't know what to do? And all these people are big shots, not nice to look stupid in front of them, they've got a notorious background for being extremely competitive and mean. Anyway, it feels good to be back in action, events give me such a rush! Hung out with Jeanne and James in town after everything, chatted and ate, noticed Jeanne was quite upset towards the end. Cheer up girl! Let it be, sometimes, shit does happen. And James was really traumatised by me, that guy is such a saint! I miss all my old colleagues, was nice seeing all of them again today cause a few were overseas last week. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:13 PM {xoxo} 1.22.2005 Went out with Jonathan yesterday and Julian today. Bought a new pair of shoes and a couple of shirts today. Went to Prerouge again for drinks last night and caught Hotel Rwanda. Was nice hanging out with Jon, learnt alot more about this classmate of mine who shares the same name as me right down to the first half of the surname. Found out stuff from him about a certain individual that shocked the hell outta me. Then again, maybe I wasn't that shocked. I saw it coming, she is so despicable and mean, doing those stuff really wasn't that much of a surprise. Whatever. Went over to Julian's place just now to borrow khaki bottoms, saw his room, some photos and his mom! She's one hot mama. Haha somehow my opinion of Julian has changed again. He truly has alot of sides to him, and it's intriguing to know more and more about him. Got to see photos of his ex-es and heard some stories about them again. Conversations with Jon & Julian have got me thinking- what do i want? What am i? I have an amazing amount of confidence for myself, I know someday I will achieve something, I will realise my dreams. To become the No.1 Host/Actor in Singapore, to become a top events planner. Those are what I want to do. Will I be happy after I achieve all that? Can I even achieve all that? I don't know man, I'm 18 this year, some say I'm still young but I beg to differ. I feel so old. I feel like a timebomb ticking, time is running out, I wanna achieve so much, I have no time!! I cannot afford to waste time. There's also the love problem, which I am putting aside for now, cause it'll be nice if I had someone but i'm not seeking or pursuing it. Don't they always say that love comes when you least expect it? I feel really funny tonight, i miss someone. something. I miss May Ling, i miss the past. I miss the old times cause with her, everything seemed so perfect, so happy. I have such fond memories of those days. Things seem so different now. Sigh. Have Event brief and dry run tomorrow, am looking forward to that!! Event's on Tues, hope I won't screw up, this is the first time i'm leading a bunch of Nokia big shots. Whoo I feel the stress already but I know i can do it. I will pull it off. I always do. But seriously, what do I want? I want wealth and fame. Yes. I do. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:11 PM {xoxo} 1.20.2005 I hereby announce today (ok, it was today an hour ago) Know Yourself Better Day. I started work again, and was pleasantly surprised to find that I was given a 100 dollar bonus by an event team to thank me for my work, and there's another one coming up soon from another event team i think. Haha was fun meeting all my old colleagues, miss them so much! I'll be 570 dollars richer by next week, heh. Oh ya it's Know Yourself Better Day because 2 people shocked me today. Firstly, my cousin's girlfriend Clara told my colleague "Jon is actually very smart, he just chose to go to a Poly. It's true, everyone in the family knows Jon is very smart." And i'm like WOW, haha good to hear that! And while talking to my classmate Jon (Yes, Jonathan See) he said I'm cool! HAHAHA and that if i ever turn gay, it would be a real waste because I'm cool! HAha the way I talk, the clothes I wear, how I am smart and have my own opinion. WOW i was surprised to hear that from him, haha. And my colleague heard me on the phone, and they said "The way you talk is very Beverly Hills 90210" And i'm like "Who still watches that?" Hahaha but I think I know what they mean. Gonna sleep early, have work tomorrow. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:11 AM {xoxo} 1.18.2005 I hardly studied for J2 test today! It was all right, probably won't fail but won't be aceing it either. After school, I decided to give the shopping trip with James & Co a miss, went to Mensa with Peng, Moo, Hweech and Crystal. Haha they're my entourage. Moo- Manager Crystal- Personal Assistant Peng- Hair/Makeup Hweech- Lights/Sound Haha cool huh? They really make me feel like a superstar, when we walk under the sun, they shelter me!! Hoho, went over to TM after that to have Long John Silvers for lunch together with Nat. Crystal joined me for the movie, My Brother! It was very sad, i cried, HAHAHA. I expected it to be some love show though, but it was more about brotherhood and mother-son relationship. Anyway, I'm going back to TEC tomorrow to work. I can't wait. I did my math and I realised that by end of next week, I would be 500 bucks richer, HAHAHA. Yay! Shopping List: Beanbag Curtains Clothes to lay my floor Shades (Superstar's No.1 Accessory) Shoes Shirts Pants DVDs signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:18 PM {xoxo} 1.17.2005 Met Jeanne in school to study for our J2 test tomorrow, couldn't find anywhere so we headed to Biz Park. Met Brandon Wong before that, and schmoozed a little with him. After about 2 hours, we decided to head to TM for Jeanne's manicure. The manicurists were really funny, they're damn bitchy, as they were doing her nails, they were people-watching. Met Julian & Sascha in school too, and Pork, Meimei & Amelia at Tampines interchange. Was reading through some magazines at Times when we spotted a few TP students modelling, and that got us a little depressed because it seems like modelling is THE way to go? Hmm how else can we get into acting and the media world? Asked Jeanne if she thought she would ever make it and what her definition of 'make it' was. For her, she wants to work with renowned people, and improve on her craft. For me, I would want to be known, be recognised by people, grace magazine covers, win awards, basically lead the glamourous side of things, i guess. Haha i promised myself that 2005 will be the year I do things, seek what I want, and stop sitting on my ass, waiting for fame and fortune to drop from the sky. Because if there's anything I've learnt, it's that they don't. I shall go for auditions, join talent agencies and see how far all these leads me. I HAVE TO MAKE IT. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 7:45 PM {xoxo} 1.16.2005 Finally, I have a new layout!! Thank you so much Krystal!! It's entirely your effort, so so grateful! I love my new blog so much, from "Somewhere Out There" to "Dreams", it's lovely!!! Anyway I only studied 2 out of the 10 PPT slideshows for J2 test on Tues, hoho, gonna do the rest tmr. Krystal's room is so cosy, I shall spend this 2 weeks hols shopping for things for my room!! My NEW room. There's this couple quarrelling outside my front door about the guy leaving after sex and not staying behind to help clean up her house, haha it's hilarious. I wonder if they know I can hear them, I should just open the door and see their reaction. I burned some songs for Amran and managed to pass them to him just now before leaving Krystal's place, i miss work. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:21 PM {xoxo} Alot of stuff is running through my mind as I'm typing this, words people have said is replaying in my mind, flashbacks of many familiar scenarios. Stuff happened, I feel like i've been misunderstood all this while. On the other hand, they are right. I am terrible, a huge pain in the ass, sensitive, critical, diva-ish, bitchy, unreasonable and irritating. Sigh, it's sad how things have become like that. It's sadder how I've become like that. I don't know what to say. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:11 AM {xoxo} 1.15.2005 Spent all day packing my room, cleaning up the entire place with my Mom, yay! I've finally taken the first step towards one of my new year resolutions, giving my room a much needed revamp! It's been looking like that since 17 years ago. Terrible. Haha we moved alot of furniture out, threw alot more stuff, and rearranged all the furniture. It's quite bare now but still a little messy because I don't have any concrete plans as to how I want it to look yet. I have a new HIFI set though, haha and Taufik's been on since yesterday. Yup, I bought our first Singapore Idol's highly anticipated debut solo album (wow that was a long one) and I must say that guy has nice vocals, pity the musical arrangements aren't exactly anything to go WOW about. The poor fella's marred by poor production teams, what with the pathetic music video and poor album packaging?? Anyway, I need to hunt for curtains, big nice cloths, photo frames and shelves! Yup, hopefully, I can finish everything by CNY. I caught Meet The Fockers yesterday with Moo & Crys, must admit that the sequel was at best, mediocre. It hardly drew any laughs from me, and the cute baby stole the thunder from all his co-stars man! Looking forward to catching Alfie. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 3:36 PM {xoxo} 1.13.2005 So, I had my favourite Kway Chup for breakfast this morning, great start to an otherwise sucky Thursday. Told you I hate thursdays. Collected my photos while on the way to school, true enough, my first roll was totally wasted. Almost 90% of the shots were blur shots. Sigh, such a waste of money I tell you. And, I have no idea how come I was charged 18 bucks for 2 rolls of films, and it's not even express service! Ridiculous, I seriously need to ask Mom for more money, getting so darn broke. Attended Lecture and some Jonathan senior was talking about his business, not too bad, he had some nice shots. AT LEAST he has shots to prove his abilities, can't say the same for Kwee Hoon. She does not earn my respect at all, not a single bit. She doesn't know anything she's talking about and she has that gleeful grin on her fair face, perpetually! It's irritating the hell outta me cause she's not teaching anything! And she is so blur, she never seems to know what is going on. Throw her any question and it's likely to be thrown back at you! Again, with that spastic grin. I really dreaded Psychology today, but i forced myself to go for the tutorial, quite proud of myself for that! Turned out better than I expected, laughed quite a little and actually began to speak to my group mates. Sigh. Hope things get better, it's another 7 more weeks with them. Tmr's the last day of this term, YAY! Just received more emails from my Godma and a colleague at TEC, i miss those guys! Can't wait to get back to work. Sch life is boring the hell outta me. Oh yeah, I can't decide what electives to take next sem. Should I take Broadcast Performance or Film Theory & Criticism? Hmm. I'll probably take this 2, just gotta decide on the order of application. Headed to Macs after school with Plastics, and from the moment we stepped in, there were people staring at us. Like, turning their heads to just look at us. It's so funny, we're beginning to notice more and more people looking at us everytime we enter somewhere. Haha we concluded it's cause we're so loud (ok fine, I am so loud) and we talk about almost everything under the sun so it's really fun to eavesdrop on us. Haha the 2 girls beside us were SO quiet, just eating and smiling to themselves. I swear they were eavesdropping, but it's ok, I'm cool with that. I was just sharing some childhood stories anyway, coupled with my signature laughter. Watched the Encore Telecast of American Idol 3 just now, I MISS IDOL FEVER! Can't wait for American Idol 4 to start next week, must persuade Mom to get SCV so we can catch the show at the same time as America. Hmmph so Moo and Crys can stop rubbing it in. And, Manhunt, HAHAHAHA you 2 losers. I miss SABA, Peng was just saying about how she can't seem to relate to Zhanghao anymore, his whole JC antics, JC mentality and JC crowd. And, I was like I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! It's quite hard to talk to Morr these days, not her fault I know, but she seems so busy, it's hard to talk to her because there's so much to catch up on, I don't know where to begin. As for Kel, hmm she's busy too. So is drew. Aiyah the whole world is busy!! During Psychology today, my tutor was sharing about her teenage years and she said her boyfriend dumped her for her best friend and she was so sad she spent a bomb on getting a new hairdo. That was her way of de-stressing, spending alot of money and changing her looks. But, now she's married someone else and she said she can face her ex and his wife normally now, because as we grow old, alot of things do not matter to us as much as they once did anymore. Everything has its timeframe, at that time, during her teenage years, her boyfriend was everything to her, but now, not anymore. So i shall constantly remind myself everytime I'm sad that 10 years down the road, it wouldn't matter to me anymore. So, i shall be happy! We also did some Muscle Relaxation Exercise, whereby we clenched our fists and then relaxed. My tutor kept repeating "Let go, it's very pleasant to let go!!" True enough, in life, it's always good to let go. At Macs, had talks with Moo & Peng abt BGR, concluded that I don't need anyone at this point of my life, I mean, sure it's good if I meet someone, but if not, i can survive too! So, i shall not complain anymore about not having someone because I don't need anyone! I can survive on my own!!! Single is good.
signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 7:44 PM {xoxo} 1.12.2005 I skipped lecture today to go to Changi Airport to take photos! Whee. Was fun but tiring. Used 2 rolls of films and I swear my SLR is screwed up. Somehow, it's very blur, everyone tried adjusting the lenses and all but to no avail. I hope my photos aren't screwed up. Ok, time for The Amazing Race!! And I hate thursdays, it's official. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:09 PM {xoxo} Can't We Be Friends? Jamie Cullum I thought I'd found the girl of my dreams So it seems this is how the story ends: She's goin'to turn me down and say "Can't we be Friends?" I thought for once it couldn't go wrong Not for long! I can see the way this ends: She's goin'to turn me down and say "Can't we be Friends?" Never again! through and with love And through with them! They play their game without shame, And who's to blame? I thought I'd found a girl I could trust What a bust! now I see the way this ends: She's goin'to turn me down and say "Can't we be Friends?" Never again! through and with love And through with them! They play their game without shame, And who's to blame? I should have seen the signals and stopped What a flop! now I see the way this ends I'll let her turn me down and say "Can't we be Friends?" I thought I'd found the girl of my dreams So it seems this is how the story ends I'll let her turn me down and say "Can't we be Friends?" signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:42 AM {xoxo} 1.11.2005 Some shots of me acting cute 
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signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:47 PM {xoxo} I'm so disappointed. I changed my number sometime in October, and somehow there was a new guy who took over my old line 9800 9817. This person started SMSing my friends and relatives to borrow money. Don't ask me how he had their numbers because in the first place I didn't store numbers in my SIM card, and my phone was traded in to m1 and my SIM card returned to StarHub. So there is almost no way anyone can have access to my phonebook YET using the old no. Oh well, it happened. And initially some people asked me about the borrowing of money so thank god, i could settle these. But some people did not ask me about it directly. Take my aunt for example, she first got the msges last month so she asked my brother and parents about it. My brother and parents believed that 'guy' and reprimanded me for borrowing money from my aunt. After verification, they believed me. Then, when i got back today, my folks started scolding me, screaming at me for borrowing money from my cousin. And now, my uncle heard abt it and he called my parents to complain. And i'm like, did you guys forget about that 'guy' who borrows money using my name? Then my folks were like "Oh ya!!!" I'm so disappointed, why do my folks always think I am some crook, the fact that they scolded me showed they BELIEVED my uncle and the fact that my uncle BELIEVED that 'guy' is very upsetting. Why didn't any of them stop for a moment to question and ask "Why would Jon do something like this?" Seriously, that is what upsets me. It only goes to show how lowly they think of me. Everyone loves to think I am some crook that is perpetually up to no good. My parents always give me that "Don't commit a crime cos there's no turning back" bullshit, as though I am gonna rob anyone anytime soon. Argh. I hate all these. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:09 PM {xoxo} 1.10.2005 Matalie reads my blog, so I shall be careful with what I say. Hahahaha. School was all right today, I swear Papa Selvan HATES me. Seriously, that black shite (no offence here folks) is always picking on me, and it's not the friendly-pick-on-you type!! He hates me!!! He is always staring at me and the moment I shift, HE STARTS YELLING AT ME, demanding to know what I'm doing. ASSWIPE. Hate Selvan. Lecture was boring, with noisy people like Emelia and Matalie in front, how to concentrate? Tsktsk. Oh yes the 7pm drama on ch8 is very touching! I was quite touched by what JiaQi did for his son, was tearing. Haha. I think i will be a great dad next time. I really love kids. Haha finally saw Emmanuel and Mikey yesterday, poor emmanuel was sick and he threw up. Silly boy. Haha cried alot but once they went to the playground, all was forgotten!! I LOVE KIDS! and I gave my sec 2 cousin maths tuition yesterday. I am good. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 8:17 PM {xoxo} 1.08.2005 After school yesterday, I went over to my cousin's place to wait for him before we went to TM for Sakae buffet and caught Seed Of Chucky. I was feeling real tired so i didn't want to go anywhere further than TM. Sakae was good, ate alot of Fried Tofu but somehow i didn't see my tuna sushi!! Seed Of Chucky was hilarious, i think it's a great comedy! It's NOT SCARY at all, trust me, it's so funny. In a sick way, though. Am gonna stay home today, read my book, watch my DVDs, listen to the radio, do some self reflection. So much has happened for the Plastics this week. As of now, I would like to say i wanna move on frm this chapter. You said your share, i said mine, i'm sorry you felt that way about me, this friendship is too precious for me to end so i'm gonna promise to change and i hope to hear something from you soon. My colleague just called me for an upcoming event at Sentosa, yay! Brad and Jen: A Couple No More January 7, 2005 ET has confirmed that Hollywood super couple BRAD PITT and JENNIFER ANISTON have announced that they are separating. "We would like to announce that after seven years together we have decided to formally separate," Brad and Jen said in a statement posted on People.com. "For those who follow these sorts of things, we would like to explain that our separation is not the result of any of the speculation reported by the tabloid media. This decision is the result of much thoughtful consideration. We happily remain committed and caring friends with great love and admiration for one another. We ask in advance for your kindness and sensitivity in the coming months." Just recently Jen was photographed without her wedding ring and the tabloids ran rampant that the couple was having marital troubles. However, just this New Year's, Brad and Jen were spotted vacationing on the beautiful Caribbean island of Anguilla with "Friends" pal COURTENEY COX and her hubby DAVID ARQUETTE. The former couple were married on July 29, 2000 in a lavish Malibu, CA, ceremony in front of family, friends and many of Hollywood's elite. The two actors have been extremely busy working on individual projects and have spent a lot of time apart recently as Jen worked on such films as 'Along Came Polly' and the upcoming 'Rumor Has It' with KEVIN COSTNER and Brad worked on such films as 'Troy,' 'Ocean's Twelve' and the upcoming 'Mr. and Mrs. Smith' with ANGELINA JOLIE. I'm quite surprised they have separated. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 4:17 PM {xoxo} 1.06.2005 Today is a great day, I checked my email and realised my Godma emailed me asking when I was gonna return to TEC. YAY!!! I'm so happy, i can't wait to go back, really. Finally developed my photos and blew it up to 8R. Photography is really gonna cost a bit. Mom mentioned she's gonna buy me a DigiCam this weekend, good stuff man! signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:22 PM {xoxo} 1.05.2005 Dragged myself to lecture today and went around town for Photography assignment after that. Before that, Moo Crys and myself met up with Shawn See and went over to buy film, batteries and ate 1 dollar chicken rice!! Haha that was yummy, then after some debating, decided to make our way down to PS cause I wanted to buy DVDs. On the bus there, we laughed like crazy and acted out my "Invisible Friend" game, that was good fun! On the overhead bridge, Shawn managed to scare this old aunty and she was quite badly shocked. Hoho, SHAWN IS VERY VERY VERY FUNNNY!! My goodness, I never knew someone like that existed in CMM, amazing dude. He's SO entertaining and hilarious, he must be the only one around who bothers to humour me and act along with me. Bought DVDs of Selina and The Client, I was quite disappointed that City Of Angels was gone. At PS, we met the Ch 8 team recording for some variety show, quite alot of MediaCorp celebrities were there. Sharon Au, Daniel Ong, Alan Tern, Nick Shen, Allan Wu and Carrie Chong were all there. While standing there and watching them, some thoughts really crossed my mind. "Would I be able to do that someday?" I really want to do radio and TV, DJ-ing and hosting sound really cool to me, and I think if given the chance, I probably won't do too bad a job. Sigh, sadly, reality struck me. I think I don't have the face or body for TV, haha, I mean it! I'm short fat and ugly. Ridiculous. But, that thought kept crossing my mind the whole of today. Jeanne had an audition at MediaCorp this afternoon, I'll pray for her. I really hope someday, I can make it too. Took the photos in quite a short time, think none of them turned out nice, will only know tomorrow because Moo is developing my photos for me, thanks Moo! Was talking to Grace earlier about my dreams and all, and now she's telling me about this guy. It's amazing how lucky she is, she gets everything she wants, she gets everyone she wants. Why are some people just SO lucky? I keep telling her how lucky she is but she can't seem to realise it. Then, there's Krystal. Another lucky chick. 'nuff said. Grace mentioned I seem to have lost my perfectionist streak, I told her yeah perhaps. I think the lecturers know nuts, peers are of substandard and the subjects this semester are so boring, I really think I'm not learning enough and not learning what I set out to. I do not wish to offend anyone out there reading this, but really, that's just how I feel. I think my time could be spent on stuff so much more worthwhile. Working, for example. I wish I could go back to TEC to work, I have passion for events and I think I can pull it off. But, cause of the "paper", I had to give that up and come back to school. I feel so wasted, it's just not worth it cause I'm not even learning stuff!!! Argh. Thank god there's her. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:44 PM {xoxo} 1.04.2005 amran k. says: you just grow up and learn that sometimes things are not so bad after all amran k. says: anyways my point is after all that rambling: sometimes we get too caught up in the situation and think that nothing is ever gonna be okay amran k. says: but as long as you still breathe, have music to soothe your ears and soul and have friends who'll make you laugh amran k. says: the world is not so bad a place after all amran k. says: we just got to learn how to make do amran k. says: just learn how to make yourself happy and do those things bro Amran is true, I've been angry for far too long. I have to grow up and look beyond this, and then realise that it's really not that bad after all. I shall stop being so mean, I must be nice to those around me. Let me list down some rules: 1) I shall stop bickering with friends that matter (Yes, that's you Jeanne, haha) 2) I shall listen more. 3) I shall bear with stupidity shown by others. 4) I shall not criticise. 5) I shall channel my energy to something positive, something i love. 6) I shall work at making my dreams come true this year. 7) I shall fight for what I want. 8) I shall talk to her. signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:47 PM {xoxo} 1.03.2005 Everyone's been mentioning about how I seem to be getting bitchier and meaner lately, especially Jeanne. I agree, but I don't know what is causing it either. Qing is asking me if I am fine, I don't know what to say cause frankly, I don't know the answer myself. I mean, everything is supposed to be OK, right? I am not happy. But don't ask me what's wrong because I can't quite point it out either. Life is such an oxymoron, things are getting more drama, and yet it's also getting more empty. It's so weird, really. Could this be indifference? signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:58 PM {xoxo} Ok, so I finished my Journalism story in half the time required and my tutor insists I pre-wrote it at home! Hello?! It's not my problem that others are slow and I require half the time needed, I am so insulted, he gave me that look that said "I know you prewrote this story at home!" What the fuck is wrong with this world? Efficiency!?! signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:59 PM {xoxo} 1.02.2005 One of Us by Joan Osborne If God had a name, what would it be And would you call it to His face If you were faced with Him in all His glory What would you ask if you had just one question Yeah, yeah, God is great Yeah, yeah, God is good Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah What if God was one of us Just a slob like one of us Just a stranger on the bus Trying to make His way home If God had a face, what would it look like And would you want to see If seeing meant that you would have to believe In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the Saints And all the Prophets and... Yeah, yeah, God is great Yeah, yeah, God is good Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah What if God was one of us Just a slob like one of us Just a stranger on the bus Trying to make His way home Tryin' to make His way home Back up to Heaven all alone Nobody callin' on the phone 'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome Yeah, yeah, God is great Yeah, yeah, God is good Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah What if God was one of us Just a slob like one of us Just a stranger on the bus Trying to make His way home Just tryin' to make his way home Like a holy rolling stone Back up to Heaven all alone Just tryin' to make his way home Nobody callin' on the phone 'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome Heard it on Class 95 a couple of days back, fell in love with it and managed to find it online! Come to think, what if God really was one of us? Haha to think I'm dragging my sorry self to church later. I've been sleeping after 2am every night and I've been listening to Class 95 during that time. The songs are really nice. Anyway, I woke up at 12noon today. Found that there wasn't anyone at home. Feeling very lazy cause of the pouring rain outside. I really wanna start studying hard and working out this new year. Ok, maybe not work out but just lose some weight la, lose that tummy and all the flabs. And no more skipping lectures and slipshod work, the holidays are over. It's time to work hard again! Have i mentioned how much i LOVE my handphone, especially now that I found out how to set MP3 ringtones and SMS tones. Hoho. I will be staying back tmrw after class, gonna do my readings for MM Prin, will try to borrow it from the library, if not, I'll just buy the textbook! Haha, the studious Jon is back for good. To all my friends who are starting school again tomorrow, it's been a great holiday, hasn't it? Well, 2004 is over now, let us all look ahead to the new year with much needed vigour and enthusiasm! All the best, everyone!! signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 3:55 PM {xoxo} 1.01.2005 They did not televise the Nation's Countdown this year, owing to the Tsunami tragedy. That was quite a letdown, was looking forward to watching Daphne n co. again. Had a great dinner with Amanda and Julian, was super full after that and walked around Suntec. Saw Grace Chong and her boyfriend, boy must I say they were a touchy-feely couple!! Tsk tsk. Bought the DVD of Win A Date With Tad Hamilton (Yes, morr!) before heading over to Amanda's place for our own countdown. We had ice cream there and I mixed some drinks for them. Bacardi with Ice Cream Soda for Amanda which she thought was too strong but Kenneth enjoyed his Campari with Tonic Water though. Haha. Soon after, I decided to join Kenneth and his 2 friends, we played memory game, Black Jack and Strip Poker. Hoho not forgetting the uber noisy Heart Attack and Bluff. Those guys are funny man! And, I also taught them Bridge!! Hoho, spread the love. All right, just got back from shopping. Bought a FCUK tee. They're having sales. Pity not much of the sales items are nice. Finally bought Julian his Xmas present, phew. Was nice meeting up with Pauline, Amanda and Julian on the first day of the New Year. Pauline said I have grown up alot, and changed a great deal too. She said it's almost as if my world is completely different from theirs now and that I have seen alot. She complained that I advanced so quickly, leaving her and Amanda behind in their shelter. Haha i must agree I've changed. Found a pair of shoes that I like, but I decided to wait awhile more before I buy it. Went by HMV earlier and bought Lee Hom's new album. Yes yes, I know this is overdue by a day but here goes my entry that concludes 2004. It's been an extremely tumultous year, what with the many changes and many first-times. Went to SAJC and enjoyed myself immensely during the Orientation. I made many friends there that I would keep for life. Not to mention, the fond memories, all the laughter and tears, all the trouble I got into with the school and the uniform! I truly miss every bit of SAJC. Then came O Lvl results. It was a shock and a heartbreak for me, was very painful and difficult to walk out from. But, I did it and when I look back on those days, it seems really recent yet really distant. I laugh at myself for crying so badly on the day of the results but inside, I know how much it still hurts when I tell people about my results. I never saw myself as someone dumb and I don't intend to change that anytime soon. It's upsetting and a huge waste that I did not do as well as I should. However, I have learnt alot from that experience and this would be something I have to carry for the rest of my life. Then came Poly, was apprehensive about school especially on the first day. That was probably the beginning of a series of downhills. Poly has been fun, fun and more fun. I've learnt alot that I wouldn't have if I had stuck on to the JC path, and seen alot for myself. I'm thankful for this experience and at least I am doing something I love. TEC. Working there for 2 months has been really fun. The Event Company taught me alot of stuff, and I got the chance to try out many things I wouldn't have had previously. This stint at TEC was the most pivotal moment for me, this was the ultimate turning point that I began to see many things differently, and my thinking has definitely gone through a major overhaul. Love life was BAD, and I also began exploring options. Studies was BAD in terms of O Levels results but TP has been great. Family life was very rocky this year and threatened to snap many times. I'm glad things are better now. Friends were my biggest source of love and support this past year and without them, I probably would still be here but I think they made everything so much easier to bear. Thanks guys! Here's your individual shoutouts now: Morr: Thank you thank you thank you. You've beared with all my shit, and I've always been closest to you in SABA, though we have not spoken in a long time, I must tell you that you are still constantly on my mind. It's amazing how I can still smile and even laugh when I think of all the jokes we share amongst ourselves. All the conferences, the shopping and even the big quarrel we had, these will remain etched in my memories forever! May you find your Mr Right soon and remember my birthday!! Drew: HIMBO! I've been incredibly proud of you and your achievements, Orientation 2005 will begin in 2 days time and it's really interesting to see how we've known each other for exactly A YEAR now. It's been fast, hasn't it? You provide lots of laughter and fashion tips, thank you so much for that and I know the thong was your idea! Remember you owe me a BETTER birthday next year!! I can foresee the Year 1s falling crazily in love with you so be patient. She will come soon. (: Kel: First impressions are really wrong. I thought you were some stuck up bitch high up there, thank God i made the effort to know you because SABA certainly wouldn't be the same without you! Even though you enjoying poking me and making fun of me, I know you love me. HAHA. Xav and you are such a sweet couple, i hope your relationship develops even further in the year 2005! I will never forget one of the most honest conversations we've shared, the debate over being attached and singlehood! Ade: Hey girl! The first girl I liked in 2004. Hoho. A year ago, I would never have thought we could hit it off so well and end up being such good friends! I'm thankful that you came into my life and trust me, you really make me laugh and cringe. AT THE SAME TIME. Xinyi: You must be one of the people that I quarrelled with most often in 2004. Nonetheless, we had some great times together and thank you so much for all that. Andrea: Hey starr! I know you really regret coming to TP and all i can say is, you might as well make the best out of your situation here. You're a hot chick with lots of attitude and I really like that about you. It's always a welcoming sight to see you in school! Hang in there. Becca: Hey becca!! I MISS YOU. Nobody calls me Skinny the way you do. You're so cute, I know you've had some heartbreaks this year. All i can say is, you deserve better!! Alicia: You sweetie! Learn to be less giving so that you won't end up hurting yourself. You know what I'm talking about eh? ;P Joyce: Original 6-er! I know JC is tough but please don't give up. You can do it if you put your heart and mind to it. I've seen how you work so I know you are capable of great things. Do hang in there. Amanda: Meimei, my fave shopping and Neoprint buddy! I always enjoy myself when I go out with you, we can be doing nothing and just walking around aimlessly yet somehow, I will be very happy. You are such a cutie la, I truly hope you do well enough to go to a local uni cause I will miss you so much if you go to Melbourne. I hope 2005 will be a happier year for you and that everything would go your way! :D And no, I did not wish that your wish would not come true! ;P Pork: We may not speak much but i remember during some of my lowest points this year, you were there to listen and dispense some advice. Though I am not a patient of your 24 hours Counselling Service, I know that I can always count on you to listen and help. I love hanging out with you cause I can suan you endlessly and not fear you flaring up! Do study hard and give this last stage your BEST shot!! Jie Ming: Another dude that I don't speak to often, but we just have this affinity. We have similar taste so we often agree with what each other has to say. 2004 has been a unique year for you too and I truly wish from the bottom of my heart that 2005 will be much better for you. May you find a girl that truly deserves you and do good enough for your As to do Law! Qing: Lao po!! Sigh 2004 has been reallly painful for you too eh? I'm glad you've found Kimmie though. From a best friend, cherish him cause the special someone doesn't come that easily. I should know eh? Thanks for listening and for bearing with my nonsense temper. All the coffee, chats and little squabbles make our friendship that much more special and interesting! You're a friend for keeps, Qing!! Ling: BEST FRIEND! Where do i begin? You are the bomb. Despite the fact that my birthday present was 3 and a half months late, and that you never ever have the time for me, I know deep inside, we share something that can never be replaced. You are such a special friend, I swear you will remain in my heart forever. As I've told everyone, I will always love you and you have been such a icon in my growing up years! I LOVE YOU!! I hope you and Lucas would go on forever and ever. Really, i do. Peng: You blow me away with that famous smile of yours and that brain. We've come such a long way now, and I want you to know that despite all our quarrels, I really do cherish your friendship. You are one of the few things that keeps me reasonably sane in school, what would I do without you? I love your jokes, as unfunny as they are, and I love playing bridge with you, as dumb as you seem. Please protect yourself and do not get hurt so easily cause I care. Moo: Rich bitch! You beautiful Indian with a heart that's even more beautiful. Always remember all the good stuff I have done for you, heh. I can't wait to spend our birthday together this year!! You've been really numb this semester, i don't know if it's good or bad but i hope you will be happy. Eventually when you get married and have kids, I sincerely hope you won't regret any decision you have made. You're one of the most sensible girls around and you're so thoughtful! I never ever want us to split up, you hear me? Crystal: You're an angel from God, i swear. Thanks for always patronising me and being such a sweetie. I love you so much! Hweech: You're a dwarf from God, i swear. Haha i love you too! No matter what your decision is, I hope you do not regret and make the best out of whatever you're doing. Quit being so half-hearted! Krystal: You sex bomb. It's funny how we were in the same catechism class for 10 years and we only spoke after that 10 years. I've seen all your bad dresses and bad hair, I've literally seen you grown up! Here's to many great years of friendship ahead!! Julian: Heard so much about you previously, must say you've proven me wrong in certain aspects. Ah beng in denial. You're a great guy to hang out with, and there's just this inner side about you that is really contrasting to your exterior. Promise me that you will not be so harsh on yourself this new year, you don't have to push yourself so hard and force yourself to be devoid of feelings. Believe in fate, if things are meant to be, they are meant to be. I look forward to seeing you around in school and doing more of your Com Skills and Entrepreneurship stuff for you, haha. At a price, of course. Phewww. That was LONG. Have I missed out anybody?? Happy new year to one and all! signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 7:06 PM {xoxo} |
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