12.30.2004

I may look fine outside, but inside it's very very bad.

Heard stuff today and confronted the party involved. Just proved my point. Not the best feeling in the world.

Mom's screaming at me. For nothing. Attributing everything back to poly again.

Yay. Perfect way to end off the year.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:28 PM

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And I thought I was screwed, having to rush work all the way till 5am.

Surprisingly, I started doing journals at 2pm and I completed all 4 at 5pm SHARP.

How pro is that?

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 7:55 PM

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12.29.2004

It's lecture now, and we're talking about resumes and all today.

I've finally downloaded the first 6 episodes of The OC Season 2! Yippie. Am aiming to download my first 1000th song into my iPod.

Jeanne and Krystal are gossiping like little girls beside me now, I bet they're talking about sex (as usual)

Moo looks hot.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:45 PM

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I really marvel at how The OC teaches me witty one liners, engages me with its storyline and at the end of the day, I feel for it.

Amazing.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 2:58 AM

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12.28.2004

Finally, I've gained access to wireless again. Was trying very hard to detect my free wireless network earlier, thank god it's finally here or I wouldn't have known what to do tonight. Yes, I am very lucky to have this wireless network near my house, I NEED MORE EPISODES OF THE OC SEASON 2 NOW!

Yup, I'm hooked on it again. I remember those days when I would download the entire season 1. Sigh, there's just something about The OC that gets me hooked. Could it be the fact that everyone in it looks so darn good? Even the yard worker, and I'm not kidding. Or is it how the main characters are aged like myself so I can identify with whatever they are going through? All of you who have not yet caught The OC, please do now. What are you waiting for?

School was ok today, Albert Toh caught me for some stuff and I totally embarrassed myself when I said I was "signing in". Damn, just became a joke for the entire LT today. Never mind, I am looking forward to tomorrow! It's Jeanne's big day. My plastic!! I'm doing this Plastics collage now, the new wallpaper for my iBook. Simply can't wait to show it to them tomorrow.

Plastics, it's been so fun. All the times we've shared. Looking at all this photos really bring back so many memories. And, it's only the beginning! We still have 2 more years to go, we need new photos. Moo, please bring your camera. Shan't say too much here, everyone close to me should wait for my entry on New Year's Eve. Will do a shout-out to everyone then.

Meanwhile, I have alot of deadlines due! 4 frickin journals are due this Fri, yes New Yrs Eve. WTH?! And, I haven't started yet. I have absolutely no idea where to begin writing.

All right, I hope everyone had a great day and let's pray for those involved in the Tsunami disaster.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:51 PM

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I've finally caught 40 Days & 40 Nights, highly entertaining may i add.

I've also finished The Narcissist, a novel courtesy of Krystal. Was even more entertaining, what with all the insights into the author's mind and all his love encounters. Yes, definitely worth a read. Something else about the book intrigued me greatly but I shan't talk about it here.

Finally finished downloading the first 2 episodes of The O.C. Season 2, someone save me. I have so many deadlines this week but all i'm doing is watching DVDs, reading books and listening to music!

This is heaven. Hmm I wonder who's the cause of it? -winks-

PS: I want to shop.

PPS: Look out for the entry on New Year's eve. The last one of 2004. That's something to look out for. Believe me.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:55 AM

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12.27.2004

It's been a great day, after I got home from school, all i've been doing is watching DVDs and downloading lots of nice songs. Haha I want to load up my iPod like crazy. Anyone has the DVD for 50 First Dates? I've been hearing so much about it, would be nice to watch.

Am downloading Season 2 of The O.C. too, can't wait for that!

PS: I miss peng, where are you? Haven't heard from you the whole of today. School sucked ass without you.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:52 PM

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12.25.2004

I'm finally home.

After school yesterday, I met up with Julian to go over to Amanda's place. Over there, we exchanged our Xmas gifts and chatted a little. We also helped her dad to move a TV up to his room.

And of course, which outing with Julian is complete without the relentless teasing and endless insults? He made me feel fat, ugly and dumb. He's truly amazing.

Amanda didn't like my giraffe ): What a pity! And, I also realied a lot more effort was put into Julian's gift, NOT MINE. Bahh.

Rushed back for dinner with the folks, watched White Chicks before I changed and went over to Krystal's to meet up with Jeanne and Sascha. Ate some more again, watched some clips and headed to church for midnight mass.

There wasn't much eye candy this year, quite a disappointment. Neither did they dim the lights nor did they present a birthday cake. Oh well, the carols were quite fun to sway along to.

Back to Krystal's place, and we found out that woman did not bring her keys! So, we had to wait outside for her family to come back, and of course we were fooling around like nobody's business. Laughed ALOT, hur hur.

Had lots of fun, we ate some more, watched White Chicks and Love Me If You Dare before I dozed off at around 5.40am. Sweet Krystal put a blanket on me while I was sleeping, thank god for that cause I was freezing! Woke up a little after 12 noon today, watched Mean Girls and we played Bridge!! I've finally learnt the game, must admit it's reallly fun.

Just got back and i'm off for family dinnner now. With the extended family. Not particularly looking forward to it really.

Anyhow, to all who SMSed me, it was very sweet of you! Sorry I didn't reply either because I was simply too tired or it slipped my mind. Here's wishing all a Merry Xmas!!

PS: In true blue Xmas tradition, it reminded me of how lonely I am.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 6:09 PM

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12.22.2004

I WANT TO SHOP! I DON'T CARE! I WANT MONEY!

By the way, Taufik's album is ready for pre-sale today!

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:03 AM

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12.21.2004

Though my MSN nick says "Many new clothes make Jon a happy boy", I don't feel happy. I mean, yeah, initially, when you first have lots of new stuff, sure you're happy. But after that excitement dies down, there's this feeling that I can't explain, and I don't want to explain.

It's weird how I'm feeling inside. And it's been all day long.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 6:09 PM

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I'm happy!

Mom told me "You can go for Xmas midnight mass with your friends if you want." when I asked her about midnight mass this year because Krystal, Jeanne and maybe Julian might be coming together with me this year.

Mom is usually quite serious about the 'family that prays together stays together' sorta thing so I was pleasantly surprised when she gave the go ahead to attend the mass with my friends. Anyhow, I promised her I would accompany her to mass.

She bought me ALOT of new stuff. Yay!

And, she also gave me cash to buy a new pair of shoes.

Yup, I'm a happy boy.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:20 AM

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Parents decided to shorten their holiday and came back a couple of hours ago. School was pretty mundane today, I really do not enjoy Journalism! Wore my new top today, that made me a little happier.

Skipped lecture to go shop with Jeanne. We had such a fun time! Combed Orchard Rd in a systematic manner, and found a few nice dresses. Finally, we settled for this local designer, Sunny Ang's little black dress at Heeren. The price tag? $349.

Uh-huh.

Thanks to my wide network of friends, I managed to get us a 30% discount. Hoho, after much deliberation, dear Jeanne decided to purchase the dress. Final price? $244.

Had some serious talk with her about life, sex, fuck buddies, love, and morals.

Christmas is just around the corner, not exactly looking forward to it. Though i love festive seasons like Xmas, i will not deny the fact that they only remind me about my lonesome existance on Earth.

Mom was a real sweetie, bought me some Quiksilver boardshorts and FCUK tops from Aussie. Thanks momma! Bro got me some Adidas and street wear stuff from KL too. Thanks bro!

Wishlist:
1) Slippers. Both Havainas and Quiksilver!
2) New Sneakers.
3) MORE Urban Male tees.

Cheeers.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:24 AM

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12.19.2004

Shopping has never been more satisfying.

In 4 short hours, I blew nearly half a grand.

Let's take a look at what i bought:

FCUK- 1 Tee Shirt

Topshop- 1 V Neck Top

Mambo- 3 pairs of board shorts
2 Tee shirts
1 Long sleeved shirt

Rip Curl- 1 pair of slippers (xmas gift)

Kinokuniya- 1 Storybook (xmas gift)

HMV- 1 CD (xmas gift)

Apple- Set of 6 iPod Socks

Yeah, that's what i bought today. Borrowed White Chicks and Mean Girls DVDs from Amanda today, can't wait to start watching them. I need some comedies to cheer me up.

Found out more upsetting stuff today but heck it, Retail Therapy rocks.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:09 AM

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12.18.2004

Last night was really bad, got cranky and felt incredibly miserable.

MSNed a few people. Blasted some, annoyed others and bewildered many more. To those whom I MSNed, sorry about last night. Up till now, I'm still trying to figure out what happened.

I attribute it to loneliness, being home alone for such a long time does have its adverse effects on me. On top of that, having been stood up twice in a week. It really isn't a nice thing. I should learn to get used to living alone, after all, I intend to move out when I'm 23.

Before Sunrise was fantastic. It didn't feel like I was watching a movie though, felt more like I was following this 2 strangers around as they bonded in a foreign land. The topics discussed in the movie left me thinking about them even after the movie ended. Can't wait to watch Before Sunset now. Morr and Amran have been raving about it, pity its run has ended. Now, I would have to either wait for the DVD or download it from the Net.

Watching 2 love movies in 2 conseceutive days really isn't helping. Coupled with the fact that I watch them alone, the after effects are disturbing.

Heading to town with Amanda later, hopefully, I can do some Xmas shopping.

Wow, Xmas is in exactly a week. Have you been a good boy/girl?

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 2:23 PM

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12.17.2004

So, my supposed Xmas shopping spree this afternoon has been cancelled.

Julian happily decided that he was going to "have lunch" with his friends today and I was supposed to wait for his call when he finished "his lunch". When I asked if he was having training, he said he wasn't sure if he would be going. Then, I asked some more and he simply said "I will call you after lunch."

Thank god I had Qing for company cause his call only came at 3pm.

So, from 12 till 3, I was expected to wait like a fool? Without any assurance about what time his "lunch" would end? Thinking it was a normal lunch, I didn't expect to wait for more than an hour. It was until the phone call at 3 that I found out Julian was happily having buffet with his Hokkien spewing friends (I overheard them shouting in the background)

And, Julian asked to meet at 3.30.

What?! Wait for 3.5 hours in total? With no idea whatsoever of what to expect?!

No, thank you. And I've learnt my lesson, never going out with him again.

PS: Yes, I'm highly annoyed by his behavior. First, Tuesday and now this. Oh, let's not forget the kite-flying incident a fortnight ago.

PPS: I bought the VCD for Before Sunrise!

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 4:28 PM

{xoxo}

12.16.2004

I'm blown away.

I will not let you walk out on your perfect life
I already did.

Crazy/Beautiful was fantastic, it was really crazy yet beautiful.

You're not listening to me, I wanna be with you.

A story about love. First love. Parental love. Unconditional love.

I don't give a shit about anything else right now, I wanna be with you.
You wanna be with me?
I love you.

I think everyone should catch it! Those in love should watch it to appreciate and be thankful for what they are having. Those who aren't should watch it to feel love and be motivated to pursue it once again.

No, don't say that because....
Shut up. I love you ok.

It was so sad, yet so sweet. I cried while watching it. How many times are we misjudged? How many people stop to look beyond that facade? How often do we experience such passionate love?

I know there's something beautiful in all my imperfections.
The beauty he held up for me to see.
And it can never be taken away.

Definitely up there with my other favourite movies of all time- Stepmom, The Butterfly Effect, Coyote Ugly, Mona Lisa Smile and Just Married.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:40 PM

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12.14.2004

So, while listening to Shoulda Woulda Coulda, and just lying in bed, thinking about alot of stuff. I teared.

And now, while typing this, after putting down a card and some photos i've been staring at for a while. I sobbed.

This is bad.

I miss her.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:44 PM

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Boo what a bummer!

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 8:23 PM

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Smiles are addictive, i love sheepish/bashful/shy smiles.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 4:28 PM

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It's really interesting how the brain works.

When you like someone, you become so concerned about that person, about how that person feels, about how that person perceives you, about what that person is doing, about what that person says.

It's so fascinating really. It just swallows you from inside.

Which is what i'm doing now. Lying in bed. With soothing music coming frm my iBook, and i'm just thinking. Just looking at the ceiling. Soaking up the day's activities. And really just thinking about that person.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 1:37 AM

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12.13.2004

So, approximately 7 hours after Journalism 2: Feature Writing tutorial has ended, Jarrett decides to tell me that he no longer wants to partner me because he wants to "work with new people".

Yay! Now tell me, where can I find a new partner who had no partners previously?

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:13 PM

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Sch begins in 1 hr and 10 mins. My alarm went off at 9 and I thought I would sleep for 5 more mins, in the end, i found myself waking up AN HOUR later. Damn, I should really learn to stop that bad habit. One fine day, it's gonna get me into deep shit.

So, Day 1 Of being home alone. It's all right, everything's going fine. Just a little worried about the laundry, dirty plates and messy house. Hahaha, who is gonna volunteer and clear everything up for me?

Bought the Crazy/Beautiful VCD on Sat, can't wait to catch it, heard it's really good. I remember wanting to watch it when it was out in cinemas because of the trailer, but somehow I failed to do so.

Today is Journalism day! 2 Hrs of tutorial followed by 2 hrs of lecture of..... you guessed it, Journalism 2: Feature Writing.

God bless me baybeh.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 10:48 AM

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12.11.2004

It's the weekend. Woke up really early this morning because of Mr Julian. Had Macs breakfast and all, in the end, realised that you needed to purchase a watch BEFORE you had the chance to even ballot to buy the limited edition Xmas watch. As much as Julian likes it, I think it's not worth that much money and trouble.

Met my granny, auntie and entire family for Dim Sum lunch. Hmmm was alrite, i guess. Must admit that I am not the most ardent fan of Dim Sum, so it wasn't the best meal I've ever had.

Met up with Drew and Kel to buy Morr's DVD, pls be grateful morr. And, do remember to give me something EXPENSIVE and nice(read:EXPENSIVE) next year! Remember folks, it's 23rd March.

Saw this new Spice Girls book, wanted to get it so badly.

Next Sat is officially Xmas Shopping Day, gonna splurge on myself for the last time in 2004.

By the way, I prob haven't mentioned: I AM BROKE!

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:27 PM

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12.08.2004

Was extremely tired today, walked alot, with a heavy bag and lots of stuff to carry. Met a bad taxi driver. Female driver. Not that i'm saying it's interlinked.

I have a friend who is feeling sad about guys. Just want her to know that she is beautiful, has the nicest smile I have ever seen and most importantly, is equally, if not more so, beautiful INSIDE. And that's what matters most. You will find someone for you someday. I can understand how you feel right now, not gonna ask you to cheer up or any of those cliche stuff. But, do know that I am always here to listen to you cos more often than not, I can understand how you feel. Cheers.

On a completely separate note, Tiffany really really really makes me happy. And, that's all that matters eh?

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:09 PM

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Am in Percom Lecture now, seriously beginning to dislike this course. Class. Tutor. Lecturer. Subject. Sigh.

Everything sucks.

I miss work.

signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 11:43 AM

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12.06.2004

Hey all: Wow, it's been a long time. Just announcing my return to this Blog!!

School started again today, somehow I did not like it. Seeing all the hugs, all the smiles, the different hairdos everyone had, just felt like everyone was so fake. Oh boy, is this how the next 2 and a half years is gonna be? Plastics agreed that we hated our new class, really gonna miss Moo.

Went over to town after school with HP to collect my FCUK jeans! Yippppie yay! I love it. Gorgeous shit.

Had a nice conversation with HP too, on the bus to town, just listening to sad songs and exchanging all our theories. Just gonna talk about some that I can still remember.

You know how we always say XXX is so lucky to have so many suitors? And some of us always complain about having a lack of suitors. We concluded that it's not the no. of suitors that matter, it's that ONE person that matters. So, XXX might have 1651981 suitors and yet still be unhappy, sigh. Such a sad world.

We also talked about 3 persons that signified the past, present and future. She named G, Mr M, and Mr Q as her past, present and future respectively. I named Ling, Ms Popular and Tiffany as the past, present and future. So, she made me choose one that i would pray to be together with. At first, I chose Tiffany, then Ling, but then I decided that Ling was the start of my life, so to speak. And, I want to respect that and leave all that the way it is. Just like The Butterfly Effect, we often say "If only..." but who's to confirm that things will be better if you hadn't done so and so? You never know. It might get worst, and nope, I'm very happy with the way things are for Ling and myself, thank you very much. As for Ms Popular, let's just say I am SO over her. Hoho! That leaves Tiffany.

Had Coffee Club after picking up the clothes at FCUK, realised I've been spending quite abit, and am really really broke now. So, I am going to stop shopping and start saving for my trip next holidays. Hoping it's HK but Moo makes Club Med sound really fun. Somehow, I feel Club Med ain't the place for me.

Looking forward to HP's books, I contributed SO MANY story ideas and theories to her today. Hope she makes use of some of them.

All right, just realised there's America's Next Top Model tonight, can't wait for that. Fuck, i am a real bitch.


signing off, da hunk, Jonathan at 9:31 PM

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